House of Krause

Today has been a day filled with so many different emotions. I was very excited to attend an all day conference with Nancy Kaufman (the Apraxia Guru). The conference was mainly geared for speech pathologist but it was also open for parents.  I didn’t really know what to expect.  It was great to sit next to Luke’s speech therapist Megan, she was able to point things out in reference to Luke.   It’s so comforting to know he is receiving the best therapy at Lucid speech!  I can’t say enough about the caring and compassion that has been shown to us, and honestly the hard work! There are days I have cried through Luke’s entire therapy session. Miss Megan hands me a tissue, then carries on with her work because she knows she only has 25 minutes to work with him. She is supportive in understanding of my feelings but she is committed and focused on the task at hand. Well today I made it through the entire conference with no tears! Then I got in my car and cried most of the way home.  The conference was extremely positive! There was so much information,  I’m going to organize my thoughts and definitely share all that I can with you in upcoming posts.  So I’m sure you’re wondering why then would I be crying??  I’ll admit I am sensitive, but beyond that I guess the hard parts of it is truly not knowing how the story ends.  When you spend the day faced with the reality of it,  well it troubled my heart. It was interesting to see just how truly Apraxic my son is. He fit in nearly every way! I saw aspects of him in so many of the children’s videos. Another hard fact is watching the work that these precious kids spend learning to talk. Years and years! Videos of a child at 2,3 5,7. Something that came so easy for my first two children but is so so hard for little Luke.  Knowing he is facing the same work ahead! Honestly as I drove home I did question”God, why?” Not like in a mad or angry way, just truthfully asking, “Lord, why??” And not just about Luke but why for all the children I had seen. Then the vision of a beautiful porcelain face, bright twinkling blue eyes, and waves of toe head blonde hair flooded my mind. My sweet Luke! It came to me that these are special angels on earth. They amaze us and show us lessons that can only come from a child. I know I’ve said it before, lessons about how to keep going and never give up! Showing us that hard work pays off. Showing us that happiness is certainly not measured by how many brain cells connect! Light and hope radiate from their stories! So with that little face ingrained in my mind,  I said to myself “Buck up! No more crying, seek God, trust Him, take all the information you learned today and do everything you can to help your son! So when it is all said and done, and you stand before God you can say and know in your heart you did everything you could!” I would walk to the ends of the earth for all of my children, I want to have no regrets! Well, I got it out of my system,  the Lord tossed the troubled heart and filled it with joy! Preston and Lily both had friends over so they were uninterested in my return, but Luke was waiting. I started right in with him on Nancy’s techniques.  We had over the top fun. I had that boy more excited and attempting more words and sounds then ever before. I’m excited to see what tomorrow brings!

Miss Megan, Me, and Nancy Kaufman!