Sometimes it’s hard to keep the glass half full!
Talk about break my heart, today held a moment that made me cry. We were all sitting in the car waiting for Paul while he ran into CVS. He needed some suntan lotion. Melanoma seems to want to grow on him. He’s always looking for new and improved lotions. Paul is such a genuine positive person. His glass always seems half full. Anyhow, Luke was buckled in his seat and Preston and Lily were playing games. Luke gave me a grunt to let me know he needed me. I turned back to see what he wanted. Then began an exchange of guesses at what he was trying to say. Mickey Mouse ears? I asked. He shook his head no. What about your Thomas book? No again. Blanket? Not it. “What was he trying to ask me? Was it something totally different??” Luke was fumbling for sounds and his hands were gesturing like crazy. I was thinking slow down, we’ll figure it out, but before I could go on, Luke put his head straight down and started crying the saddest cry I’ve ever heard. It was as if to say ” You really don’t understand me, I’m totally defeated.” By that point I started to cry, and said “I’m sorry, I don’t understand.” I got out of the car to go around and give him a hug. That hug seemed to make us both feel better. Just then Dad returned to the car. I quickly told him why Luke and I were crying and hugging in the parking lot. Then Paul welled up with just a single tear and said, ” Don’t worry Jen, we’ll understand him soon!”
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11
November 30th, 2008 at 7:42 am
My Dear Sweet Jen
I am sitting here crying over your last blog. You are such an insipration to me. I love you very much. The story was great and I know it will touch someones heart. Keep putting out the word.
Love Mom
December 3rd, 2008 at 8:54 am
Jen,
What a touching story. I think of you everyday and the new challenges you face and succeed with. You and Luke have inspired me with my children in so many ways. You and Luke have worked so hard and have established an amazing way to communicate; as I observed in awe during my visit. I know you won’t ever give up, but I just want to say you’re awesome and you are all making so much progress. You already know this I’m sure, but just a reminder: you will always have bumps in the road, but they will keep you motivated and give you the strength you need to keep moving - whether it seems that way or not at the time. Keep up the good work! You are always in my thoughts and prayers. I love all of you so much!
Erin
December 9th, 2008 at 6:18 pm
hey jen…. read about your little boy… its so weird i have been trying to get ahold of you one way or another… i figured that i would probably receive a christmas card and hopefully get you number…. i think of you sooo much and miss you tremendously…im sorry to hear about your battles but am really amazed at what a beautiful person and family you are/have… i have also learned the past 2 years, just how true your verse in jereamiah really is… its so hard to completely rely on god when there is much pain that we go through…. i would love…love…love to talk and fill each other in…also if therapy is in murrieta, i only live 15 min from there… i would love to see you i could meet you out there or even come by your house… if you would like to hear more about our lives you can check out my churches web site…promisetribe.com and you i think have to registar to look at my blogs… and what challenges have come our way… the way you wrote and the stories really made me cry… i love you jen and really cant wait to here from you… email me at mimi324jesus@yahoo.com, or call me at 951-925-4862(home) cell 951-634-3991….keep turning your eyes up when things seem to go dark… because in our darkest hour he will deliver us…looking at life with your glass half full rather then half empty is a gift….thank god paul has been given that gift and he can be your support when you need it most….melissa